The Frost before the Buds of Growth
This is the original maze. The incarnational maze. We all get set up with these trick mirrors that bring illusions and the side doors that lead us for another detour. My maze was believing that all I could ever be, all I could ever hope for, was to be accepted amongst my Asian family and community. Wandering in the maze, I was willing to give up my body, my soul, and my dreams to feel what I thought was ‘Love’.
The Asian American Life Crisis
Most Asian Americans are taught that it is essential to get the best education possible, obtain a high paying job in a stable career industry, and get married by their early thirties. If that is not too much, they’re also pushed to start having children soon after marriage to prevent a woman’s biological clock from ‘running out’. What is tragic about this trajectory is when Asian Americans can finally experience their adult independence psychologically and financially, they are pressured into giving it up quickly by taking on the enormous responsibility of parenting.
Rebirth of Passion for Asian Americans
I write this post for the Asian Americans, so that they can have a framework and idea for the intergenerational patterns that hold them back and find their autonomy as humans. The ingrained fear and scarcity mindset does not help us fulfill our dreams and support our community. In order to make a difference, we Asian Americans will need to do something different. We can make contributions into industries that meet our passions and support society, rather than lean on a ‘safe’ career that only temporarily pacifies your fear of insecurity. We can explore our inner worlds and emotions as a full human, not as a humanoid playing a role that must be vetted or vetoed by an Asian elder.
Going Out to Sea: A Message from Goddess Ma-Zu
If you never leave shore, you may believe that you are safe.
But you will always wonder what would’ve happened if you
Followed your Heart.